Wednesday, April 23, 2008

update

so, i decided to pack up my sewing machine and bring it with me to my parents' house. i have worked a little bit on lucy's quilt. these are strips that need to be cut into blocks. i couldn't quite get the picture just right this morning. it is so windy outside! you can see it in the strip on the right because it is being blown to the right. i could have gone out and tried again, but my hair is wet, and the wind was just a little too cold. plus, i wanted to post while the kids are occupied. they are helping their papa clean the yard by picking up pine cones (don't worry, they don't have wet hair).
i don't know if i will post again this week (i hope too). my grandma is not doing well. the leukemia is taking its toll on her body and it appears that she had a stroke over the weekend. so, now she is not able to really talk to us. she gets a word out here and there, but that is about it. losing her seems to be getting harder. the thought of never having a conversation with her again is so hard to imagine, especially considering how much she loves to talk. there are times through this when my heart aches so much. but, there are also times when it is filled with happiness, like when lucy gets up in the bed with her and my grandma manages to smile. she even blew lucy a kiss yesterday, which was great because she hasn't been able to move her arm. i am so thankful that i get to spend this time with her. i know it is precious.

6 comments:

karin said...

amy...hearing you talk so fondly of your grandmother makes me think of my grandmother. It was hard when she passed away, but the memories of her are as sweet as when we shared them together. So much of who I am is because of her and I suspect that is the same with you due to all of the kind thoughts you have shared about her over the months. Cherish the moments.

kristi said...

it seems to me in our current society that we don't really find as much value as we should in what older generations can teach us--maybe that's why there has been such a resurgence in those "old" arts like quilting, knitting, sewing. Or maybe it's just that i'm having an awakening to them. :)

don't underestimate (as i'm sure you aren't) what kind of impact this is having on your kids (in a positive way of course). i would imagine that the value of spending so much time with their grandma, observing how you interact with her, seeing how she is so tender with them--these are all things that are shaping who your little ones are. and it's not something everyone has the privilege of experiencing.

still praying for you...

asti said...

((hugs)) to you Amy. Keep your chin up. Asti x

Amelia Plum said...

I think Kristi said it best about not underestimating the positive impact this is having on your kids. I know it must be extraordinarily painful for you to see your grandma suffer, but those little treasures when she bonds with your daughter are priceless, for all of you. Even if your grandma has trouble talking now don't underestimate the positive impact seeing you and your children has on her. I'm sure it puts her heart at ease

sew nancy said...

Much like the making of your quilt and the comfort it will bring the pieces of each day with your grandma that make you smile will warm you forever.

Tania Julian said...

Hi Amy, hang in there! I'm sorry this is bringing you pain, but it is so precious to be able to spend time at home with your whole family. You can find comfort in that. And as Kristi said so well, it is awesome for Larkin + Lucy to have such a beautiful example!

Can't wait to see the finished quilt. And work on your machine again (although it is tainting my contentment with my $100 Sears model)

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